freedoM!

hmm..

hooray to the end of exams! n hooray coz ive joined tabao united =( damnit. i'm so bloody upset n disappointed. improper time management. tonnes n tonnes of stuff to study... information overloaded for the past couple of wks. feel as though i've resurrected when the clock strikes 12 today. so good.. but i've done soooooooooo badly for my papers... tat for the first time in my entire life i know i'll jus gonna see them nxt sem. it was so horrible, that recalling those times back at the examination hall.. i'll jus shiver at the thots of it. seriously... im 19 going twenty this year... took more than 12 years of examinations... this is one which i go into the examination hall w abt 20 to 30 % of knowledge... this is the one which my mind suddenly black out.. forgetting every single formulae.. leaving abt 80% of the paper blank... things i've NEVER done in exams before. it was jus horrible. terrible. wanted so much to cry mid way thru my exams.. but i cant.. tears jus couldnt flow... head spinning.. aching.. ive never felt this way during an exam before. im so sad.

but it's thru this exam i learnt tat i have very very good lecturers n tutors. i'm simply too touched by them. their sincerity... their effort.. and everything else... i loved them seriously. no tutors wld stayed up till 4am for consultation.. but him... no tutors will drop so much hints... but him.. there's jus no one else like him... and a few other tutors too. im really really touched by them. i supposed towards the end of the exam.. the reason why im able to continue mugging was because of them as well. of course there are many other reasons. like my lovely neighbors... we pushed each other... comforted each other when we were down.. cheered for each other... tat's how i survived. i really couldnt imagine how life wld be w/o them arnd.

im gonna miss them really. miss everyone while im away in canada for 2.5 months. ive finally decided to put aside everything in singapore n travel to a faraway land. and for the first time in my life... a place so far away... alone... no.. im not gonna be scared. i gonna be independent. i will survive. really. finally exams are over n i can finally get real excited over this trip. i gonna leave my family.. my frens.. my commitments.. my responsibilities aside for these couple of months.. away to a foreign land. i wanna travel... i wanna make friends from all over the world... i wanna experience how it's like to be in a foreign land. i wanna learn to be independent. im 19 going 20. im a young adult. i shldnt worry... i'll be fine. it gonna be great fun! *excited*

email me my friends... or email me ur address... n we can be short term penpals! i really really gonna miss you all.. goodness!