tiring wk..

hmm..

apparently.. i chanced upon kc's songlists and now im here listening to his songs. and i jus realised tat he's a christian coz he has got so many praise n worship songs in his list! n there was this particular song which i havent hear it in quite a long while... it's the song i first sang in that little old chapel where i converted. brought back so much memories of those days. so much has changed since then. after i converted, i used to attend church services once in a while... but now... very very seldom. maybe like once a year when there's an invitation? i dun even know if i still consider myself a christian. many many years back, my religion was taoist. next was christianity. now? should i say free thinker if someone asked? i really dunno. i still seek for god when i need him. but i feel kinda bad that he's on my mind only when i needed him. will god still love me? will he still be there for me?

ok.. ive finally cleared most of my debts. gonna thanks grandma and grandpa for that actually. i still have hostel fees to clear. and some remaining miscellaneous fees in sch. darn. but w/o the money from my grandparents... i wouldnt be here in hall now. heh. im only supposed to spend their money on sch fees and hostel fees. but ive spend quite an amount on myself coz ive been jobless since my student graduated. haha. so i gonna work and put tat money back. sigh.the past wk has sorta been a study-work wk. tiring man. on one of the days i actually reached back hall at close to 11 and nearly concussed immediately. maybe god knows tat i've made quite a loss this wk... tat's why ive quite a few job openings this wk which i took up all. thanks lord! and i sold one of my textbook as well! yoohoo! erm... but soon i'll be broke again... coz i need to buy textbooks. hahahahaaa.gonna stay back tmr to earn some fast cash. tat's the reason why im staying back and also why im gg for tmr's make up lect. crap. haiz. so tiring lo. and nobody's in hall today. actually got la... but all went out. im supposed to be out at training too. but my toe hurts. got bitten till it's swollen. gosh.

anw i tink there's some prob w my neighbors lately. one has been too hardworking. the other likes to irritate me.. to the extent tat i got to ignore her... and she has to changed her nick on msn to 'my neighbor hates me now... and she really hates me'. weirdos. then another one has been rather quiet. always disappearing from our sight. and another one just pms for no reason.. asking if i was trying to be sarcastic when i asked such an innocent question. damn. everyone's weird. next wk will be a full wk. and my lab will kick start as well. actually tat's good in one way. at least there wont be make up lect. freaking lecturers want make up lect on saturday. haiyo. very tiring leh.

shucks. im spending so little time at home. i miss my mom's dessert so much! had desserts in sch but all tasted so different. ahhhhh... mommy... will u make me some dessert this wkend? hahahahaha