goodbye..

the end..

spent 5 days at the wake... missed 5 days of sch.. 5 days w my family.. last 5 days w my grandpa. out of the 4 nights, i spent 3 nights keeping watch at the wake. it was a tiring wk. im upset at the demise of my grandpa. but im more upset watching some people creating trouble at the wake. sometimes i think it might be easier for my grandpa to leave the mortal world, than to struggle with his illness at such an old age. i know he just cant bear to leave us.. his children.. his grandchildren.. and his great grandchildren. to me, he had always been a very good grandfather. though i seldom chat w him, but everytime when i visited him since i was young... you'll just understand how much he dotes on everyone of us. sadly, not all this wishes are fulfilled. grandpa's last words was deeply etched in my memory. so were the words mentioned by my uncles at the wake. i've lost a grandpa forever.. leaving behind words which i know will stay with me forever.. i miss you grandpa.

in the past 5 days.. i've become closer to my cousins... and i learnt to be more rational. still learning perhaps. i was taught how to be more tolerant.. how to overcome anger.. how to overcome evil. im thankful for that.

may you rest in peace, grandpa.