y r so many ppl dying?

well..

the past couple of weeks were not good. visited my aunt just last sunday at the hospital. n she was in a real bad state. i felt so sorry for her. my cousins were nearly arguing w the doctors. other aunts sobbing away. even my grandma surprised us by taking a cab down despite wheelchair bound n it was raining heavily tat day. tat scene was so painful. i wont want to picture it again. 2 days later. my mom called me while i was still in hall to inform me tat my aunt just passed away. perhaps becoz i wasnt very close to my aunt all along, so i didnt feel tat much. but i could understand how depressed my mom, my aunts, n my cousins would be. after all, life's still the same for me except tat somewhere out there, i knew someone is gone. perhaps it's good for my aunt too. it seems just too painful to fight cancer. too painful for her. too painful for her children as well.

attended the UN associated of singapore 60th anniversary dinner on thurs. met a lot of high commissioners and ambassadors... and had a good dinner. heh. nth much... just a good experience perhaps.

for attending tat dinner, i dun ve enough time to study for my quiz. so me n CL went to can B and mugged the whole nite thru. it was really a marathon. but my mind was blank after 7 am. totally shagged. so i stoned n had breakfast and waited for my test st 1030. praise lord tat it wasnt too tough. at least i know im able to pass this quiz. heh. tat was my first time attending lect in t shirt n fbt shorts. so paiseh tat i rushed back to hall after tat. n i fell asleep immediately upon reaching hall. n i make my way home after 2 hrs of sleep.

it was upon reaching home tat i heard news abt the death of my jc classmate's mom. sigh. what's going on? there's too many death of all of sudden. n i was too tired. when i woke up in the middle of last nite... i ended up crying to myself. im alright now after forcing myself to go back to sleep. now im still feeling very tired. i tink i shall not go thru any study marathon again... it's mentally straining. 30 hrs w/o sleep. nearly died.

i guess now im jus afraid of losing anyone else in my life. im afraid of losing my grandpa.
please bless him o lord.

im so touched! =)

nv had such a feeling for so long...

i'm so touched. seriously. the little things they did for me really touched me. was studying till late nite yesterday, cl n clement went to buy 'dinner-cum-supper' for me. jh wanted to fetch me back to hall w his bike, but it starting pouring. so jan n cJ walked me back hall instead. evon thot i went mia n gave me a call. haha. silly girl. well.. what jh n evon did was kinda unexpected. was really touched by their little acts.

im glad to have them arnd. i love my frens. =)

zzzZzz

well...

u may be wondering why im blogging at this hr. cuz my dear evon fell aslp on my bed... n so soundly aslp. didnt want to wake her up cuz she's like forever so deprived of slp. so now... i ve no bed! =( cj has got no bed to slp on as well, cuz her bf fell aslp on her bed. goodness... haiz.. let me tink of ways to slp tonite... haiz

hmm. had netball trg earlier. not too bad... slightly better than i expected.. at least i see some familiar faces... haha. tat makes life so much better.

argh... im not in the right mind to write properly now... dam.. see ya...

im so blessed...

wooo!

had the last training for bball today. very shiok! seriously. the seniors concluded tat im scared of ball. so they gonna train me on tat. so crappy. hhaaha. very tiring man. training frm 7 to 11... jus had my dinner not too long ago. was famished! good thing jh was out n he bought me food from outside. dam delicious noe! it's one of the best dinner i ever so far in sch! perhaps tat's coz the food is frm outside! wahaha. but it was still hot when he sent it to my room... right at my door step! den he was knocking on my door n i thot i was evon or someone playing... ahaha.. paiseh. n so i had horfun. come to tink of it... nxt time i better not decide for myself what to eat... others can make a better choice for me. haha. now im dam full. bloated. but i feel like an extremely satisfied fat dino! haha.

haiz... so many things going on this wk! how to study??? tell me tell me! anw, back to bball... wanting was dam nice la. seriously. i love all my seniors in bball man. really. n wanting actually wrote everyone in the team a postcard to cheer us on for the exams n gave us chocolates! goodness... it had been such a long time since such a thing happened to me. such a long time ago since someone last wrote me a postcard. i really enjoy myself with them. =)

im so blessed. dunno why but i feel so happy today. haha. it feels great when life isn't hectic. it feels great when i finish all my tutorials before attending class. it feels great to have good frens arnd. im so blessed! thank Father! love ya!

bball!

yo!

well. not too bad yet. 6 hrs of sleep to start off the week. was feeling dam tired aft sch.. headed back to my room n nearly hit the bed.... but... i need to mug for econs. so was mugging n dozing off until i went over to my neighbours' room n made jelly for them. well.. why i volunteered to make the jelly was a long story. basically i was told to help them buy instant jelly tat can be eaten instantly... but i bought those tat need to be cooked. but it was nice! so feeling bad.. i made those jelly for them. hope it turn out fine. haaha.

well.. den went for bball trg aft jelly making session. all i can say is tat i ve wonderful seniors! they are so patient in coaching me.. explaining to me the formation, the tactics n the skills... point out to me my mistakes n they are juz so nice... so aft trg went over to one of their rooms n chatted n had dinner cum supper. juz came back. n now... it's back to econs.

haha. i just feel good to have such nice seniors arnd. =)
i had a good day today! =)

hmm. somehow im feeling much better now abt my failure for driving test. was still kinda shocked tat i actually was haunted by the test. somehow i jus felt so bad then tat i missed by jus a bit! was dam sad. not only feeling sad mentally... but financially too... coz i paid for every single shit. n this re-test alr cost me abt 400 bucks! another re-test wld simply render me broke. was so devastated abt mainly financial matters. but it's kinda alrite now... i tink i'll change to private instead. much cheaper. i tink gonna look for more tuition lobang to cover cost. sigh. anw tat was a few days ago... im fine now. not last nite tho... coz somehow i had an argument w my dad.. n i came str to hall immediately aft. was dam sad coz i don like the feeling of 'walking outta home' aft an argument. was sobbing on the train... thank god there wasnt many ppl.

but everything is fine now. no worries. i'll jus pray for peace. sometimes the feeling of coming back hall is so nice. the ppl here jus make u laugh no matter how depressed u are. perhaps i shld listen to my head n transform all my sorrows into work. i'll be hardworking!