y r so many ppl dying?

well..

the past couple of weeks were not good. visited my aunt just last sunday at the hospital. n she was in a real bad state. i felt so sorry for her. my cousins were nearly arguing w the doctors. other aunts sobbing away. even my grandma surprised us by taking a cab down despite wheelchair bound n it was raining heavily tat day. tat scene was so painful. i wont want to picture it again. 2 days later. my mom called me while i was still in hall to inform me tat my aunt just passed away. perhaps becoz i wasnt very close to my aunt all along, so i didnt feel tat much. but i could understand how depressed my mom, my aunts, n my cousins would be. after all, life's still the same for me except tat somewhere out there, i knew someone is gone. perhaps it's good for my aunt too. it seems just too painful to fight cancer. too painful for her. too painful for her children as well.

attended the UN associated of singapore 60th anniversary dinner on thurs. met a lot of high commissioners and ambassadors... and had a good dinner. heh. nth much... just a good experience perhaps.

for attending tat dinner, i dun ve enough time to study for my quiz. so me n CL went to can B and mugged the whole nite thru. it was really a marathon. but my mind was blank after 7 am. totally shagged. so i stoned n had breakfast and waited for my test st 1030. praise lord tat it wasnt too tough. at least i know im able to pass this quiz. heh. tat was my first time attending lect in t shirt n fbt shorts. so paiseh tat i rushed back to hall after tat. n i fell asleep immediately upon reaching hall. n i make my way home after 2 hrs of sleep.

it was upon reaching home tat i heard news abt the death of my jc classmate's mom. sigh. what's going on? there's too many death of all of sudden. n i was too tired. when i woke up in the middle of last nite... i ended up crying to myself. im alright now after forcing myself to go back to sleep. now im still feeling very tired. i tink i shall not go thru any study marathon again... it's mentally straining. 30 hrs w/o sleep. nearly died.

i guess now im jus afraid of losing anyone else in my life. im afraid of losing my grandpa.
please bless him o lord.