it's my life...

hehe...

hi. didnt blog for quite awhile is it? first time blogging in hall.. tried to blog the other time in hall too.. but the connection was too slow n my roomie was right behind me... so dunno how to blog too. but now she's not in... shhh.. hahahaha

was damn bloody busy for the past few weeks. esp last wk i tink. one reason was becos i've been super duper slack in sch. i wont deny tat. n only one person understands how stressed i was then. i didnt mean to skip lectures n tut... but i really had sth else on hand.

even my wkends were gone... n yet no matter how busy... i made it a pt to visit my grandpa. jus last wkend... i nearly cried while chatting w him n grandma. i ve two very understanding grandparents. tat's wat i ve to say.

back in sch... i found myself not worrying abt such family matters. cos there are so much to do! so much tut to catch up. so much to catch up w my roomie n my neighbours. adding on... i've found myself 2 very nice neighbours. hehe. for tat... im really thankful. instead of coping myself in my room... now i see myself roaming abt... chatting along corridors... crapping n laming arnd... going down for ibg tgr... going to sch tgr... discussing political issues tgr... n gossiping tgr.. they r really great man... sometimes it's unbelievable tat at 3 plus in the mrn im still able to come up w craps.. thanks to them. haha

alrite.. jus to inform tat nth much had happened to me since the last time i blogged. im still the same carmen. perhaps a little more stressed. a little more happy at times. n a little sad at times too. a little crazy still sometimes. but a lot more sleepy everytime.

bless u..

hmm..

wat do u do when u're scared?
i refused to tink of it.
i shld be a happy knowing tat the WHOLE family is gg to reunion soon...
but somehow i jus cant smile.
cos im gg to lose my grandpa soon.

im thankful.
thankful for so much things to keep me busy for the moment now.
im too busy to think abt it.
actually everything else is still the same tat's why im still the same.
but life has indeed been a little too busy...
i'll want to retreat into a quieter and less hectic life.
haha. but who am i kidding man...
tat's only possible if i move out of hall??? and if i quit sch???
damn..

im tired..