i need a friend to love..

happy new year!

heh. i feel so refreshed! it's such a great way to start a new year! despite having quite a late night yesterday.. i managed to ve a peaceful 10 hrs sleep. 10 hrs is enough. i just dun understand why i always dun get enough sleep in hall. one thing i loved abt coming home is to be able to sleep in peace and for as long as i want.

hmm. met jack in the afternoon. it surprised me a little tat jack would be the first person i'll meet up with in the new yr. haha. we met at a place which i've never been to before.. hang around a little while... and ended up at causeway pt. like from one end to another. hahahaha. as usual, i was condemned for my 'blurness'. i dunno why... but despite staying in singapore all my life... there're still so many places so unfamiliar to me. n i get lost so easily. haha. jack showed me some msges sent by wt. i really really envy the friendship they shared. really. i wonder why i'm not blessed w such a friendship like theirs. they merely know each other for a few wks, but are now so close to each other. i yearn for a friend whom i can love... whom i can hug when i feel empty n lonely... whom i can cry for.. whom i can talk to.. whom i can buy things or make them things to show them how much i cherish the friendship. when jack was telling me abt the friendship they shared.. there was a sudden sense of emptiness inside me. tho i do have many friends, but everyone seems so busy with their life, tat there's hardly anyone whom i can share my thoughts with. i dun seem to be able to open up to anyone anymore. i still do play around w many people around me.. coz i loved to see smiley faces. but it seems like ive become such an introvert tat besides joking n fooling around, i can hardly start off a serious conversation abt my inner thoughts with anyone. and as ive got older, i enjoy shopping alone... doing things alone. why is it so? is this part of growing up? sigh