one more day..

tmr's my last day at work.

and im feeling almost exactly the same as my last day at cpf.
i miss them.
they might be some kinda devils when they're pms-ing..
but at other times... they're jus like angels.
i saw the ugliness in them. yet i saw the beauty in them as well.
i loved the fun. the jokes. the crap. the bickering. and all the beautiful memories i had of that place.

i hate to leave. yet i hate to stay as well.

so much things up in my head.
it feels like it gonna explode real soon.
feeling so heavy-hearted these days...
and ive yet found a reason for all these...
just that the memories kept re-playin in my mind..
i feel so tired. so tired.

dead

okay...

wat can i say? life's been pretty much happening during the times when i didnt blog.
and im dying now.

shall update when im alive.

wat's wRong?????

sigh.

im worrying. of cos. i dunno wat on earth is happening to me. i was so lost. i made all sorta mistakes possible. i disappointed others. and of cos myself too. damn. suddenly i am scared, hearing my inner voice saying tat im not gonna make it thru this time. sigh. i'll keep tinkin abt it n upsetting myself shld i ve nth to do. so... ive decided to imposed upon myself a 7-day work wk. work till i drop dead.

and now... 1255. time for dinner. bye.

kiddOooo..

oooolalaaa...

so i've sent kiddy n kiddo off! wahahahahaaa. they're away for 2 to 3 wks! and so i'll be free! wahahahahaaa. well... im SO SO SO SO SO SO glad tat kiddy is now such a good boy! hahahaa. some scoldings are good at times. wahahahaaa.

anw.. yesterday was a good day! maybe except the weather isnt tat fantastic. had a great time w kiddy n kiddo.. and a nice ride around singapore. haha. i tink one reason why i was so happy was becos i just solved a brain teaser! wahahahahaa. took half an hr! wow! well. then was spreading my joy chatting w ppl online... but after the hyper effects subsided.. i realised how much time i've wasted sitting in front of the com jus clicking on tat 2 buttons for 30 min! oh man.. wasted so much time. i still need to study kiddy's test papers. and arrange my lesson before they come back from their hols. and recently took up an assignment to prepare worksheets and work solutions for primary 5. wow... now u'll know wat im busy with after spending 9 hrs in a freezing cold office. brrrr...

im so happy. looking at the calendar.. there's only 4 more wks to go! wow. the first time i counted was 16 wks. tat was during the first wk when i took up this job. then it was 13 wks.... then 12... and now 4! im so happy! hahahahaa. and my body has self-adjusted to waking up at 7am! even on a sunday! tat's dam sad.

so this mrn i woke up and accompanied mom to the market. so happy tat she's making rice dumpling! wahahahaaa. soon i'll ve abundant ba zhang to eat! wahahahahaaaa. and so was hanging arnd while she picked the veg... and i truly looked dumb carrying those bags pacing arnd. so i found a corner, put the bags down and waited. and there she was, chatting w this auntie... and then i overheard them talking abt going for taiji lessons in the mrn. hahahahaa. like those typical chinese drama. oops. but well, i did encouraged mom to join them. it's after all a form of exercise. ppl of my age go for aerobics. the more flexible ones go for yoga and pilates. not so flexible ones like me go for kickboxing + aerobics. and ppl of her age shld be doing line dancing or taiji. haha. seriously.. sometimes it's so interesting seeing a big grp of aunties gathering tgr dancing salsa, cha cha, rock n roll, tango etc etc... really interesting. reminds me of those days back in tk. FUN! wahahahaaa.

anw, one stop of my aimless stroll yesterday was expo. wanted to see wat the PC show has got to offer. and once again... was kinda disappointed tat my savings are nowhere sufficient for me to buy a laptop. sobs. so was walking, walking... and rmbed auntie was at the motherhood fair. so i went in to look for her. walked 3 rounds around the hall before i finally saw her. anw.. it gives u such a good feeling walking arnd the hall. sooooooooooooooooooooooooo many BABIES! soooooooooooo CUTE! wahahahahaaa. it's kinda like a HUGE childcare. wahahahaaaa. should i go crazy.. i would ve ended up playing w one of those babies. wahahahahaaaa. so adorable! hahahaa.. and then came this guy.. 'free mag for u?' .. erm.. btw do u know wat kinda mag tat was? 'MOTHERHOOD' so... i wanted to ask him if i do look like a mom or a mom-to-be... but didnt ask la... don want to create a scene there. wahahahahaaa. don want to scare those little cuties.. hahahaa.

last nite was kinda interesting online. it was sorta a CPF family gathering just tat one part of the family wasnt there. and abt 5 to 6 of us were chatting. out of 6.... 4 are unemployed! hey! unemployment rates in sg are high! hahahhaaa. as usual, we always planned to meet up... but i doubt we will... cos we always failed to reach a consensus. hahahaa. but it was kinda fun... so violent online. wahahahaaa. and dunno how THEY reached the topic of being attached. well. 3 of them wanted to be attached by 20. and so... it's only one more yr! hahahaha. lol. sounds so desperate. why???? can't u live w/o guys? be INDEPENDENT gals! no guys... good life! hahahahaa. for me... it'll be ideal to get married before 30. tat's 11 yrs down the road. how fast. haha. but they are a desperate gang... they'll try to convince u tat guys are indispensable. hahaa.. they can't convince me tho. it's a great thing to be single too! enjoy ur yrs being single gals, before u get tied down w a family. wahahahaaa. enjoy the freedom!

anw, the idea of working at home is great! really. but there's always a need for someone to be in the office.. haha. so tat i can email them wat i required. hahaha. okay okay.. off to work!

kiddOooo..

oooolalaaa...

so i've sent kiddy n kiddo off! wahahahahaaa. they're away for 2 to 3 wks! and so i'll be free! wahahahahaaa. well... im SO SO SO SO SO SO glad tat kiddy is now such a good boy! hahahaa. some scoldings are good at times. wahahahaaa.

anw.. yesterday was a good day! maybe except the weather isnt tat fantastic. had a great time w kiddy n kiddo.. and a nice ride around singapore. haha. i tink one reason why i was so happy was becos i just solved a brain teaser! wahahahahaa. took half an hr! wow! well. then was spreading my joy chatting w ppl online... but after the hyper effects subsided.. i realised how much time i've wasted sitting in front of the com jus clicking on tat 2 buttons for 30 min! oh man.. wasted so much time. i still need to study kiddy's test papers. and arrange my lesson before they come back from their hols. and recently took up an assignment to prepare worksheets and work solutions for primary 5. wow... now u'll know wat im busy with after spending 9 hrs in a freezing cold office. brrrr...

im so happy. looking at the calendar.. there's only 4 more wks to go! wow. the first time i counted was 16 wks. tat was during the first wk when i took up this job. then it was 13 wks.... then 12... and now 4! im so happy! hahahahaa. and my body has self-adjusted to waking up at 7am! even on a sunday! tat's dam sad.

so this mrn i woke up and accompanied mom to the market. so happy tat she's making rice dumpling! wahahahaaa. soon i'll ve abundant ba zhang to eat! wahahahahaaaa. and so was hanging arnd while she picked the veg... and i truly looked dumb carrying those bags pacing arnd. so i found a corner, put the bags down and waited. and there she was, chatting w this auntie... and then i overheard them talking abt going for taiji lessons in the mrn. hahahahaa. like those typical chinese drama. oops. but well, i did encouraged mom to join them. it's after all a form of exercise. ppl of my age go for aerobics. the more flexible ones go for yoga and pilates. not so flexible ones like me go for kickboxing + aerobics. and ppl of her age shld be doing line dancing or taiji. haha. seriously.. sometimes it's so interesting seeing a big grp of aunties gathering tgr dancing salsa, cha cha, rock n roll, tango etc etc... really interesting. reminds me of those days back in tk. FUN! wahahahaaa.

anw, one stop of my aimless stroll yesterday was expo. wanted to see wat the PC show has got to offer. and once again... was kinda disappointed tat my savings are nowhere sufficient for me to buy a laptop. sobs. so was walking, walking... and rmbed auntie was at the motherhood fair. so i went in to look for her. walked 3 rounds around the hall before i finally saw her. anw.. it gives u such a good feeling walking arnd the hall. sooooooooooooooooooooooooo many BABIES! soooooooooooo CUTE! wahahahahaaa. it's kinda like a HUGE childcare. wahahahaaaa. should i go crazy.. i would ve ended up playing w one of those babies. wahahahahaaaa. so adorable! hahahaa.. and then came this guy.. 'free mag for u?' .. erm.. btw do u know wat kinda mag tat was? 'MOTHERHOOD' so... i wanted to ask him if i do look like a mom or a mom-to-be... but didnt ask la... don want to create a scene there. wahahahahaaa. don want to scare those little cuties.. hahahaa.

last nite was kinda interesting online. it was sorta a CPF family gathering just tat one part of the family wasnt there. and abt 5 to 6 of us were chatting. out of 6.... 4 are unemployed! hey! unemployment rates in sg are high! hahahhaaa. as usual, we always planned to meet up... but i doubt we will... cos we always failed to reach a consensus. hahahaa. but it was kinda fun... so violent online. wahahahaaa. and dunno how THEY reached the topic of being attached. well. 3 of them wanted to be attached by 20. and so... it's only one more yr! hahahaha. lol. sounds so desperate. why???? can't u live w/o guys? be INDEPENDENT gals! no guys... good life! hahahahaa. for me... it'll be ideal to get married before 30. tat's 11 yrs down the road. how fast. haha. but they are a desperate gang... they'll try to convince u tat guys are indispensable. hahaa.. they can't convince me tho. it's a great thing to be single too! enjoy ur yrs being single gals, before u get tied down w a family. wahahahaaa. enjoy the freedom!

anw, the idea of working at home is great! really. but there's always a need for someone to be in the office.. haha. so tat i can email them wat i required. hahaha. okay okay.. off to work!

lala..

oooooo..
i loved happy endings! yeah. rushed all the way back just to watch the happy ending of gallen n jessica. haha. kinda dumb.. could ve went shopping since im already in town... but no no no... dam... my addiction has come to an end. i shall stop watch anymore shows. hahaha. finally! woo! and ooo... i lost my way in town.. again.. sobs.

ordered 2 walnut cakes. one for my family.. the other to share it w whoever i wanted to... and when the cakes arrived... wow.. smells soooooooooooooo good! yummy! was msging ppl so tat i could share the cake with.. and in the end... guess wat.. went to my usual friday hangout... and i told them to try the cake. wow. great! and so we chatted while we ate. and 3 fellows actually finished one entire cake! wahahahahaaa. well. trust me. it's really nice. home-made fresh walnut cake! hahaha. and tat's when we started to talk about various yummy recipes... and i feel so like baking over the wkend... haha. anw... we chatted.. and eventually took up this part time 'job'. part time cos i can work during my free time. and i considered it a job... cos after all it requires commitment. but it's a 'job' cos i rejected real commitment, and i refused to be paid. the job requires planning, organising, and most of all... thinking. i doubt i'll ve the time for all those... so i only took up the 'thinking' part of the job. well.. it's kinda a project. i'll done it once before. now, the second time. but not planning and organising. hahaa. kinda lookin forward to it since i'll get to use my brain! wahahahahhaaaa.

anw, was tinkin of baking sth over the wkend. but seeing tat walnut cake means i couldnt carry out my plan. mom would kill me! okay. so this wkend will be a pigging wkend! no baking.. no shopping. just eat and sleep and eat and sleep and eat and sleep.... wahahahahaaa.

and agnes, please do not post anymore pic of food on ur bloggy anymore! thanks.

oh oh.. wanted to say this the other time but i forgot...
well. wat is rich to u?
last time this fren of mine ve a house (hse.. not flat) and a car.
after gettin a licence, it became one hse, 2 cars.
i was saying tat this fren is dam rich...
nxt thing... fren's fren has 4 houses and 6 cars!
so my fren said she's not rich.
so wat abt me den? tat makes me a poor little girl.
but well... look on the bright side...i can be a happy poor little gal!
wahahahahaaaa=)

happiest day at work? haha

heh..

happiest day at work! woo!
1 june. due to the changes in arrangement, i was attached to this auditor for 1 and a half day! the auditor of our department. and there i was... leading the life of an auditor's assistant for one and a half day. wow. tiring. time passes so dam fast tat for the first time in this office i feel like doing OT. well... and it's the first time in this office too tat i've not check the time the entire day! so tied up with work. and at the end of the first day, the auditor asked me how's the job. and so i said 'quite alright'. well, anything is better compared to making calls. hahahahaaa. and she said she'll teach me more the next day. but i only have the next half day with her. still, i thot tat was quite fun. dealing with all those transactions... lotsa receipts to go thru.. lotsa signatures to look out for... hell lotsa paper work! the amount of papers that accumulated in a month is equivalent to the mountain of jc notes n tutorials we've accumulated over the 2 yrs. wow! sucky. far too much work i think. no life. wahahahaaaa.

anyway.. today was real hilarious when it comes to the walnut cakes. apparently there's this craze abt walnut cake in the office... and... haha.. it's impossible for me to type it out... it doesnt sounds funny here. hahaahaa.

okay. and im so glad tat my craze over gallen gonna end soon. real soon. haahaa. still.. im very attracted by him. seriously.... and soooooooooo many ppl say he's handsome too! wow! see.. i can't be wrong. i've standards too. high standards. and after all... he's great! really. hahaha.

anyway im tired. real tired. and i feel quite xin tong... cos i scolded kiddy yesterday. and cried. erm... i mean he cried. argh... and i didnt scold kiddo... but kiddo cried too... erm.. actually he cried even before i started my lesson. darn. 2 cry babies. i almost broke down cos of this 2 cryin big babies. sigh. cant believe tat i tried to reason w kiddy... and i expected him to rebel me... but he didn't ... instead tears welled up in the corner of his eyes. but after all.. i tink it's a good thing to scold kiddy. he deserves one. haha. but just one. i doubt i'll scold again.