work cont'd..

and there was where i ended up at for the next 3 and a half months...

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the feelings then was one of relieve due to a new environment perhaps.
tho initially i do feel rather reluctant to take up the job, due to the nature of the job which required me to speak up. but i took it up anyway.

i dreaded the job initially. cos i was afraid to speak up. n cos i felt it was so monotonous. it took me quite a long while to click with the other temps there. before then, two wks after i started the new job, i called up the agency and told them i wanted to quit. but they were kind enough to counsel me rather than to give me a scolding. eventually, i concluded tat i was too implusive. and so i stayed on. i rmbed tat ive even frequently contacted the ex-colleagues telling them how i dreaded my life at the new place.

but soon, i've gradually got used to the kinda life. and with the commence of my first tuition, life was kept busy from morning till nite. i either spent my evenings teaching, or attending lessons. tat went on for the next few months. nth much, or rather nth significant happened. but it was there tat i learnt abt human nature.

i came across ppl with ugly personalities. it was a moment when i was so depressed. office politics. and poor treatment of temps. i've seen it all happening w my very own eyes. it was so upsetting. it nearly got me psychotic once when things went far too wrong. yet, i knew i was in no position to judge. after all, i spent more time tgr w the other temps. i supposed i need to put myself in the shoes of the perms. and so i let the matter rest n forgot abt it. n i've really forgotten wat it was tat triggered my anger except tat i vaguely rmb sth went so wrong back then. it was at moments like these tat i wish i would fall n hit hard on my head so as to forget everything.

but ever since i decided to put myself in the shoes of the perms, things went pretty much smoother. tho at times i could feel myself drifting away frm the other temps cos of the different mindset, we still managed to enjoy each other's company chatting abt stuffs like school and frens and life besides work.

i was generally treated well in the office. treats to cakes and teas; crap w some of the perms; helping the perms run errands at the same time taking it as an excursion round offices at other levels. and ive got to say tat other levels have very nice offices! the office design was damn cool! the colors they used were so loud, bright.. so brave to use such colors like red n orange for offices. and it made the office looked so vibrant, so full of life! tat's why i enjoyed running errands for them, and the other temps thot i was insane, wondering why i seemed to be on such good terms w the perms. they may have ugly personalities, but no one is entirely a baddy. on the flip side, they may be quite a nice bunch of ppl too.

on the last day, we were treated to a thai restaurant for lunch.
haha. see. tat shows further tat 'theory' is right. no one is entirely a baddy.
and i really appreciated wat my in-charge had did for me.
helping me w my tests, exam, and all my leave. she may not be perfect, for she's a human too. too err is human. she pmses too, and at times made things difficult for us - temps. but no matter wat, it's all a thing of the past. and we may never cross each other's path again. so i chose to overlook all her flaws and conclude tat she had been a good in-charge. am i too naive or are the others too sensitive? i was told tat im naive. cos despite her flaws i still think she's someone nice. but i'd rather be naive and happy, than to be sensitive and unhappy.

i supposed i wont miss them. perhaps i've jus ended my job. and so once in a while i'll still think of some moments at the office. the moving. the ordering of cakes n puffs. the treat from allison. the jokes from jun. the sweets which amanda bought from perth. the drinks at the pantry. the 2 days attached to auditor, sabrina. our first and last lunch together.

well. everything has come to an end.
tat's my life for the past 6 months.
nth personal for i've yet sorted out my thots.